lately classmate of mine have been coming to me. they came to me in hope that i could help them complete their final year project or thesis. I am in Software Engineering and hence the final year project usually involved with web development. That not really a problem for me accept for one thing.

I didn't take my own final year project this year as i failed one of the required subject. It felt awkward to have them come to me for help when i failed a very important subject when they don't; Database.

Even now, i still try to please every one. My parents thought me that "good" behavior. Now, this "good" behavior is killing me. I please everyone but myself. I completed most of their projects and when they met with their supervisor, i am really surprised to learn that their supervisor is also pleased with the system i made.

of course, i can't deny that my skills in web development is still at its early stage. i still make many stupid mistakes. i still have a tonne of things to learn. but if i could make these system that they suppose to complete in 3 months, i completed in less than 2 week. try to imagine their skills. not to say that they are bad at programming, but the education system itself is sucks. the system thought us JAVA for 3 semester. and i learn php by myself to get this far.

regards,
Rizald Maxwell

p/s: my journal probably only about me ranting about my sucky life.